I can still remember the first time I purged
I was on family vacation I was probably about 12 I went out to dinner and got a hamburger. I ate all of it because I hadn’t eaten in days. I was so disappointed in myself I got up to go to the bathroom and tried I purge. I was convinced I wasn’t capable I making myself throw up but I kept trying. 1,2 and 3the Magic number of fingers I had to stick down my throat. I finally got it. Purged it all up all gone. I can still remember the rush I got off of it. The runny nose the glassy eyes and the pride I had felt.
I told myself I could control it but who was I kidding
Here i am 17 and throwing up my eggs I had from breakfast. I can’t wash the smell of vomit off my hand and I’m dizzy.
I wish I never started purging. But I can’t stop I can’t live with out purging I don’t know how.
Fuck you pro Mia blogs.